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4th post today

2005-09-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

this is the 4th posts today... i am terribly upset wif my results... i will strike back... i promise... STRIKE BACK ... STRIKE BACK.... and should i delete this blog?

should i delete this blog?

2005-09-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

hmmm... shoudl i delete this blog? i dunno... i agree tt it is taking up most of my times.... as i haf to blog and visit other ppls' blog... and well.... exams are coming! er... well... if i dun delete.... i will feel tempted to blog.... lehz.... anyway... ppl any comments.... can say a nt?tell miee before the holiday ends.... ok.... cos by then... i wanna make up my decision le...

another entry...

2005-09-02T17:49:00.000+08:00

JO and HJ:
i am nt exactly upset wif euu two...but still think euu alll should haf wait for miee lorx.... after all... i am alte for my guides meeting... cos i help euu all pack locker.... i even help euu all by putting some books into my locker... is this the way... euu all treat mie... lyk dirt huh? anyway... i dun mind much le... all i want to say... is tt euu two said euu willl wait for miee le...but both of euu did nt.... lyk the saying goes: being good doesn't pay.... euu all dun even tell miee.... both of euu should haf been more responsible.... lyk maybe leaving a note? i've been disappointed lyk so regularly until i am used to it le... haiz... forget it...

got back progress report...

2005-09-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm... i gt back progress report today.... and well... i did REALLY BADLY...so do nt ask miee for my grades.. i wun say... and dun even think abt guessing... and oso dun ask...

hmmm... pretty busy next week....

mon - aniti-drug and inhalants abuse course
tues - enrichment camp
wed - NTH! YEA!
thurs - art - ipw workshop
fri - sci centre cip hr
sat - sci centre cip hr
sun - sci centre cip hr

hmmm.... well.... nt exactly very happy.... gt 6 sets of maths paper, 1 lit assignment, 1 yu wen nina bi, 1 gong han, theory workbk chapter 16, i dunno liao... forget le...
wait... i write another entry....

i am basically very happy today...

2005-09-01T17:27:00.000+08:00

lol... basically i am very happy today... i juz finish my art.... lol.... i am so proud of my work... and AFTER MODIFYING.... i ams sure it is NT COPYRIGHTED.... i start doing frm 12.... until 4 + leh.... but i try out on my previous copy.... obviously... i redraw..... cos too many marks on it... cos i draw too hard liao... so perhaps take longer lorx..... but i am realll proud of my work....

lol... i gtg liao.... signing off... going to do my 4 maths test paper.... i will strike back... i promise....

changed blogskin...

2005-08-31T21:17:00.000+08:00

lalala... i changed blogskin le.... hmm.... this seems a but fantasy to miee... but the cartoon character on the right... is pretty horx.... and the song i oso lyk... lol...

lalala.... in happy mood.... today.... or maybe i am VERY HAPPY now.... lol... cos i changed my blogskin.... and horx.... today... went back concord.... the security is stupid... we r stuck outide./... a lot of us argue wif the two security guards.... and i gues... well... so so lorx.... later went to lot 1 to eat wif jing yuan... den go back concord.... and realise i am trapped outside... so went to 7-11 to find georgina, fillis and my sis lorx.... eat until ke sin came... she dismiss at 1.10 ma.... by the time she arrived.... is abt 1.45pm le.... eat until 2.20 den we walked back to concord....

guess... wat... the security couldn't be trusted.... cos tt they say we can in by 2.30... they let us in late by 15 min! lol... euu may think it's nth much... but it is under the hot sun lehz...

very sad... nv bring camera today.... today... see adeline, shiya, CRYSTAL, chu yong, nai fu, jing xi, xin hao, jun tao, wei li, jun guan, shafter, fillis (obviously), georgina, jone lum, and last but nt least... KE SIN....

sad, sad.... or i can take pics wif them.... lorx... all cos of my forgetfulness.... lorx.... next week SUPER DUPER BUSY.... i am gonna strike back ..... believe miee.....

lol.... striking back.... signing off... kaijun....

sad...

2005-08-29T17:12:00.000+08:00

today in especially bad mood.... i guess i haf to modify my art... since mr lim say it is copyright..... haiz.... in terrible mood today.... and well... i did nt do very well for my lit overall.... tt is enuf to make miee cry......

soemtimes... FRIENDS around euu tend to hurt euu.... in wadsoeva ways.... but they dun seems to noe.... and i am really REALLY tired... of projects stuffs.... ESPECIALLY HISTORY PROJECT.... i dunno wad euu all going to.... but i really hope euu alll can meet one last time..... before we hand in the board game.... btw... benjy.... euu haf nt finish the rule bk..... all of u pls be present... and i oso nt free tml... i haf maths enrichment.... course... tt thing... i am so sick of it... i hope i haf nv join in the first place...

here are some comments to benjy and jo...

benjamin:
no offence... but i think demas is right when it comes to invading privacy.... i think the business of jo and i is none of ur business.... so dun even try to butt in... it's nt tt i want to be mean or nasty.... but watch wad euu say... sometimes... it hurts ppl so much.... without euu knowing... and ur words today.... hurt miee a lot....

josephine:
things are no longer the same as before i noe.... things had changed.... and we r drfiting apart as time goes by.... but nth stays foreva.... since all our memorable things had past.... i think i will let bygones be bygones..... nth can change the fact tt we are nt as gd as before.... but i really really do appreciate all thos happy times.... we haf together... and encouraging words and consoling when i am feeling down.... but wadeva happen before had already past.... so juz forget abt it.... no matter how much i am mad at euu... before.... all i can do now is think of how happy we were then.... but no matter wat.... we r still friends.... but truthfully....i hope time heal the wound..... but when i am hurt... it left a permanent mark on my heart.... no matter how hard i try to erase it.... it will foreva be dere.... i dun ask for much now.... i onli hope tt euu dun fall into bad company.... * i hope euu noe wad i mean..... no matter wad.... euu muz move on... even though.... how unhappy... how hurt euu were... remember.... i hope the best in wadeva euu do... do remember miee as a gurl hu euu can turn to everytime euu r unhappy... ok....=)

last but nt least, to HUIJIN,
lol.... b'dae gurl... so poor thing... today ur b'dae still haf cca.... lol.... i bet this is one of ur best b'dae eva? i guess so.... HAPPY B'DAE! do be optimistic in life.... and well... nt be so toot anymore.... jk.... xd

*jo is euu dun understand nvm... cos i tink i oso dun really wad i am writing... juz remember the letter's content....siging off.... hope the day will be beta for mieee tml.... kaijun....

nv been tt upset before....

2005-08-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

jo:
i nv been tt upset before... euu gave miee joy and happiness.... they are very memorable.... but still.... euu doubt miee for even believing euu in the first place.... euu r wrong... jo... i always sided wif euu yet euu dunno....

everytime.... benjy... (sorry benjy)..... said sth tt is nt very gd of euu... i always put in gd words for euu.... dun believe euu ask him and crystal..... i always believe tt euu will do it... and nt make miee disappointed.... but still euu did.... and now euu r even doubting miee? i can say that in this cls.... i regard euu as one of two hu is my best friend.... lorx.... but euu doubt miee? how can euu? i really trusted euu.... and is tt wad i get in return.... IS TT WAD I GET IN RETURN FOR THE ONE I BELIEVE MOST?

i am truly upset.... i am always biased towards euu.... when benjy lied... i grew so angry wif him.... and dun even think if i haf jumped to the wrong conclusion... or wadsoeva.... (*sorry) but when we suspected euu lied... but euu did nt.... i hope euu nv did..... i always told them nt to jump to conclusion and i will tok to euu..... and i truly believe wad u told miee.... and is lyk through times.... it is so obvious tt i am always siding euu.... even crystal say so....

honestly... i am truly upset when euu nv bring the cards... cos i told benjy tt i will remind euu and i said i BELIEVED euu will bring.... but in the end.... euu prove miee wrong.... benjy is still right.... i refused to accept these facts.... i dun want to believe.... and i haf nt really accept the fact.... but... actions speak louder than words.... ur actions prove miee wrong...

euu said euu skip ur cca for these.... but i nv say euu MUZ SKIP UR CCA.... U MUZ COME FOR HISTORY PROJECT,.... i nv said tt.... if i've had.... i would nt haf let hj go dmc.... if i haf done tt.... dere wun be meetings when onli benjy and i do onli.....

wad can i say... i really tolerate enuf.... and today... well... i juz say straightforwardly.... i dun want to hide anything now.... i tot the ruffles is mine.... i ask euu if euu want to share... euu say no... cos euu dun haf euf money.... den in the end... i said ok..... lorx... i pay myself.... lorx.... and i said i let euu eat.... even if euu eat... euu ate more than 3/4 of the ruffles.... for goodness sake... tt is MY LUNCH! my lunch.... euu want miee to say wat.... dun euu think u r too much.... if euu haf eaten half... well..... maybe i will be nt tt mad... at least i still haf half.... i am some one hu nids lunch... i can't skip lunch.... and i went back to sch at 4 + wif a VERY VERY HUNGRY STOMACH....

and for goodness sake... sometimes... it is nt abt money.... money does nt solve all the problems.... pls think this through... was it still my fault? was it my fault.... tt things go wrong between us? was i the cause? or haf i trusted the wrong person..?

*weeps.... sad.... nv feel tt sad before... i am already crying now.... signing off... kaijun...

enuf is enuf...

2005-08-23T20:14:00.000+08:00

enuf is enuf... u ppl keep messing up my schedule... and i haf to cancel wif my ex-clsmate again and again.... and in the end... nv do project... =(.... i am really disappointed wif euu guys...

josephine:
yea... i noe euu apologized... but sorry... too... i dun accept ur apology.... i mean i gave euu the whole weekend..... to get those regardless LAMINATE OR NT cards.... juz gif them to miee.... tt's onli so little.... tt's onli wad i ask for... is it too much....? and euu can't miss meetings juz cos euu dun lyk the person.... i really want to comment on ur attitiude... as a friend.... i tell euu honestly.... if euu continue wif ur attitude.... no one will want to do project wif euu.... i mean i haf tolerated euu.... and given euu numerous chances.... but sad to say.... euu did nt cherish them.... and i am utterly disappointed wif euu... wad is the use of crying over spilt milk.... i really haf enuf...

hj, crystal:
hmmm...well... actaully... gt nth to say to euu all.... i onli gt one thins to say.... dere is sth wrong wif our schedule.....

benjy:
hmmm.... welll.... gt to thank euu.... euu been hte most enthu one in the grp... cos uuu the onli guy ma.... xD.... jk... well.... (*ur bad habits haf been starting horx.... interrupting others during public speaking) lol.... other than tt.... nth liao...

well.... guys... all i haf to say all of u is tt.... when euu all decide on the say euu all want to do project... pls do nt change the date AGAIN AND AGAIN./... euu all haf been messing up my schedule... and haf to say no to my ex-clsmate when they ask miee out... pls... i beg euu all... i terribly miss them.... and i haf to say no again and again... cos of the project

euu all may think i should haf voice out.... but tt's under SACRIFICING UR TIME for projects... i think for 5 ex-clsmate gathering i went to onli 1? pls.... stop changing again and again.... and dere is a limit to my patience.... i mean i given thh grp so many chance liao.... euu all keep dun wanna turn up for meetings.... i can't help it.... if euu gt cca or wadsoeva.... euu should HAF TIME to do project.... nt a single meeting... EVERYONE IS PRESENT.... i am really disappointed....

and NOW! i dun ask much.... i juz ask tt euu all TURN UP FOR MEETING... stop throwing tantrum.... no slacking obviously.... and MAKE TIME FOR UR PROJECT!!!

signing off... ben.... ur bad habits... remember horx.... lol.... kaijun.....

result...

2005-08-22T17:31:00.000+08:00

currently... i am under STRESS.....

mon(today) - design the board
tues - maths enrichment / history project (maybe nt going) / sci project
wed - guides / presenting sci project
thurs - board? think so... actually... i had nth
fri - cip hr
sat - ipw
sun - history

come to think of it... it is so so la... dunno... i am nt free now... back to work.... le..
signing off... kaijun....

busy schedule...

2005-08-18T20:44:00.000+08:00

arggh... these few days... i haf such a busy schedule.... and projects oso driving miee crazy.....
today... generally... i feel beta la.... but horx... the guides girls ask us to meet and den later cancel... dunno... hj gt buy b'dae cake a nt.... i forget to gif her money... lehz.... and i now very lazy to call her....

tml.... i nid to go guides.... to show keat win the dance lorx... and later nid to do history project... saturday.... sci project... and keat hong campfire..... and sunday.... go sci centre for cip hr.... lorx... busy sia.... i hope nth went wrong during the weekends...

finish my hw liao... the c0mpo tt nid to be handled in tml...

tml... gt respiration and photosynthesis.... 22/8
all bio module.... 26/8

nid to study for sci tests... muz remember.... oh ya! nid to bring chi file on mon... tt means i nid to file all my worksheets during the weekends...

ok.... nt bad day la... gtg le... bb.... signing off.... kaijun....

2005-08-16T22:35:00.000+08:00

demas is right... i think i am so stupid... and gullible... braces needed to be changed from 4-6 months..... since he went dere last month.... he couldn't haf dental appointment.... i am a complete idiot...

i dunno..... euu could juz say.... euu nid to do sth for vanitha... and euu can't say.... tt wasn't giving away the secret, are euu? do euu haf to lie abt dental appointment? i am stupid enuf to believe euu.... i dunno..... y..... maybe cos of history project... i trusted euu.... so much... or rather TOO MUCH... but euu mispalce my trust..... euu may think it's ridiculous but it's nt...

euu may think y i cared abt this so much? but cos euu can lie to miee once.... euu can lie to miee again.... and next time.... hu noes? maybe worst.... i dun lyk the idea of being lied... to....

haf euu tried putting urself in others shoes..... ? how would euu feel when somone euu trust.... lied to euu..... oh... i forgot... euu take things lightly.... and probably... forget this in a week time? haha.... i am so stupid... and idiotic... to believe euu....

i should haf noe beta.... haven't history.... repeat..... everytime when i trusted someone nt to lie.... HE OR SHE lied.... once for all... again..... i HATE LIARS... so pls..... just take it as i beg euu all... to hueva seen this entry.... DO NOT LIE TO MIEE.....

TRUST is sth powerful and it can end ur friendship or start a new one... is dere any trust i can beleive in?

*getting maths results... tml....

determine

2005-08-14T13:01:00.000+08:00

i am determine to make it this way such as when one of them teammates dun turn up for meeting...... we juz cancel it.... after all this is the whole grp project..... if 1+1 = 5.... i dun nid so many grp members..... i wanted the results to be.... 1+1+1+1+1=10.... this is the results.... to show tt everybody is working....

if 1+1=5..... den y did the rest get the score too..... i think tt's unfair... if only 2 do the work.... and the rest.... do LITTLE work.... i am nt making any personal attack.... i rather onli 2 do.... after all.... i can get more for my effort.....

i dun mean to be sarcastic to anyone or wadsoeva.... but it's really very disappointing.... wad did one nid to do such tt 1 = 2.... at least.... AT LEAST.... euu alll think ba..... i dun wanna force euu all to turn up..... euu dun miss the meetings cos euu dun lyk tt person hu turns up..... it MAKE NO SENSE.... get it..... and welll.... if ur parents scolded euu or wadeva.... wad make euu think the others did nt get scolded too.... but y they still turn up..... as i say.... i am nt MAKNG ANY PERSONAL ATTACK...

if euu think i am toking abt euu.... i am nt.... it is juz SIMILAR..... but euu really ought to do some soul searching.....

signing off..... i think i am ready for sch... my mood is back.... and i am determine to climb back.... to where i used to be.....

resutls...

2005-08-13T19:12:00.000+08:00

ya... thanks fillis... after all... euu r the one hu noe miee best.... euu are the one hu noe miee the longest.... yes.... tt day i felt lyk crying and i did..... tt day.... when i was so upset.... i cried.... when i went home.... i cried..... euu noe frm one look tt i had cried.... really.... thks for being my moral support....

i dunno abt history project.... now i dun care wad others think.... but i think after this histroy project.... i am very sure i dun want the same team mates anymore.... no offence..... i think dere's sth wrong wif alll our schedule.... we couldn't even get everybody to be present for a single meetings... it's all wrong..

i think i am lost... lost in my own world...

mixed feelings...

2005-08-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

i having mixed feelings now... this very minute.... firstly... i wanna apologised to hueva tt i had been mad at... and shouted at... or blocked euu on msn... sorry...

this is due to the fact tt i am frustrated and vexed over my results and cca.... i believed... i haf nt put in enuf effort for my common tests.... adding on is tt i am sick.... it all contribute to my results dropping... i been slacking too much... i been paying too much attemtiom on other things lyk cheerling comp....

i promised myself tt from today onwards.... i willl owrk hard for my end of yr exams... i promised myself i wun get upset and be firm with my will.... for the rest of my coomon test results.... i promised myself i will quit one cca.... (nt yet decided which one) .... i promised myself.... tt i will go lot1 once a month perhaps.... to ENJOY myself...( buying things and the library doesn't count...) ... i promised myself.... i will be determined tt i do nt lose my guts... of course la... haiz.... i promised... i promised... i will do beta for my end of yr exmas...

(*weep) sigining off... kaijun....

sick...

2005-08-02T15:02:00.001+08:00

can't believe it... i am sick again.... yesterday... since about 5 pm.... i haf terrible stomach cramp... i tot it is menstruation pain.... but it's so terribe.... i didn't get to slp the whole nite.... and i woke up at 3 + and vomitted..... but i can't do anything.... i try to slp again.... and this time i manage to 2 hrs of slp? haiz.... in the morning.... it is still very pain..... went to see doctor.... doctor say i eaten unhygenic food.... tt's y...... but couldn't be.... yesterday.... lunch.... eat kfc wif jo hj and crystal.... but y a i the only one hu get stomach ache.... and at home dinner i ate food cook by my mum..... curry.... it's is very clean lorx.... how come?

i wanna go bathe liao.... i dunno y.... after eating the medicine prescribe my the doctor..... i am getting rashes.... arghh..... i dunno i haf any drug allergy..... haiz.... gtg le.... bb....

*they say the history paper is easy.... tml... sci paper....

sick...

2005-08-02T15:02:00.000+08:00

in comp lab now...

2005-08-01T13:52:00.000+08:00

lalala.... now in comp lab.... finish survey... le... today.... er.... lit and higher chi.... lit is hmmm.... so so la.... hope i didn;t score too bad.... and er... chi ar.... i a bit nt sure of myself lorx..... hmmm.... tml is history...... nt coming online later.... now i juz post a bit lorx..... haiz.... hmmm.... jo lyk a 01 guy and he refused to tell miee.... la.... but hu noes... maybe i noe hu he is.... haha...=) i am EVIL! haha..... and er..... cca still continue..... tt mean... tml still gt modern dance.... wed.... and guides... thrus.... dance again.... sianz larx.... haiz... fri i think needa stay back for the cheerleading competition... the cheerleading competition is coming... next mon... and i think we r gonna lose... reallly.... heard tt we r competiting against the sec2 and sec 3 too! how could we beat the sec 3.... and oh ya.... next sat... our sch guides and scouts orgainising a campfire..... sec 1 is supposed to put up a performance.... hmmmm..... so we haf to show keat win our dance by friday.... sianz..... meet a haven at 1.30..... after sch..... hmmmm..... den horx... on 10th on Aug..... public holiday... needa meet up do the history project..... ithink coming very soon is the ipw project.... boo hooo hoo.l.... so many projects.... and hopett i do nt fall sick again lorx..... pls./... and of course hope i score my common tests wif flying colours.... if i type anything wrongly... sorry ar.... cos i am in a rush... typing at so fast lorx..... i think is fast la.... and i think i lyk this keyboard..... next time come to this lab often ..... and er.... later going lunch wif jo... maybe crystal and hj.... they nt sure.... cos they gt digital media club later.... i wonder wad i want for lunch...

signing off.,,, kaijun

sick again

2005-07-30T20:03:00.000+08:00

i wonder how does it feels lyk when euu are sick thrice in a month.... this is the first time it happens..... and now is the third time.... and next week is common test.... euu all noe i am a poor thing.... really.... i am the only one at home now.... my sis, mum and dad all go barbeque wif my cousin.... lehz... i want to go... but i'm too sick to go.... and yesterday i am desperate to go to kallang theatre to watch the syf gold dances put up by MOE.... and we r given free tickets ok.... but yet i still nv go.... cos i'm sick.... haiz... let's hope my coomon tests are nt bad news.... =S

lalala....

2005-07-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

haiz... today.... gt guides.... do proficiency badges.... sianz la.... yea.... np PT.... only slack around..... la.... den horx.... yesterday dance.... siao lorx.... do so many dance.... dunno if i remember them tml.... one is the one we learn during sec 1 oreintation.... one is the jazz dance.... one is the current one.... sianz.... and tml haf ballet.... sianz....common test coming liao.... i am nt blogging much.... haf terrible sorethraoat today...

sianz...

2005-07-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

haiz....yesterday dance cancelled and i haf lots of hw... tt's y i dun haf time to update yesterday... shouldn't hf finished the wb whole chapter 2... neddn;t to do all ma... i'm stupid... =(... and sorry crystal tt i haf been delaying cos my bag is rather heavy to bring an extra harry potter book.... sorry.....

and horx... today gt guides... ARRGGHH! drills.... we do sediya and sana-giri? spelled lyk tt? i dunno.... lah... do until lyk siao.... hui ling teach one by one.... and tell us wad our mistakes.... then everybody together... but it was terrible... all bang VERY DIFFERENTLY... and we oso done kekana lobseng???? dunno la.... i tilt my neck until it hurt now! and haiz... i think i can't break free frm the cheerleading things.... after all i am the one hu has done the in front formations.... and how could i give up lyk tt? could i? i am nt sure.... really want to break free and revise my common test without any projects and wadsoeva.... but i think i can't do it... i am a complete failure.... i noe i am a sadist....=0

signing off.... kaijun

continue...

2005-07-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

this is to continued from the previous posts... tt benjamin try to remove his name frm the previous posts... and i hope he dun see miee blogging... or he will try to do it AGAIN! and now... we r doing nth... cos crytsal say we can slack... since we gt nth to do now.... hip hip hurray!... slacking...and it's pretty cold here.... haiz.... and tt ben trying to patch the newer version which is version 10 on this comp.... hmmm.... slack... slack.... slack...

at ben's hse again... history project....

2005-07-18T14:54:00.000+08:00

hmm.... now at ben's hse.... today.... actually... jo, hj, ben and miee is supposed to do history project together at ben's hse.... but horx.... haiz..... jo stomach-ache.... and her mother ask her nt to come.... so... now only three of us.... lorx..... we started off at 9 + la.... typing q and q.... later jo send q over... but quite difficult to read probably cos she scan? dunno.... den.... hmmm... went downstairs to buy titbits.... and type more q and more and more q.... sianz..... lorx.... and tt ben's is checking on mie.... worrying tt i will type sth and crystal will see.... lorx.... it lame! he is behind miee now..... and even hj oso here now.... they ARE CRAZY! and horx.... eat lunch.... sianz... and watching television programme juz now.... lalala.... and horx.... actually... thinking how we ahould play this game...the concept....

hmmm... since crystal....

she is nice...

2005-07-16T19:27:00.000+08:00

today went sci centre to do cip hrs.... dere is a gurl hu is jc1 and an ex-ctudent of bpians... but i forget her name... she is sho NICE! i was completely lost today... cos first day dere ma.... learnt how to play a lot of game.... it was quite fun.... =).... me, hj and the gurl first become exhibit explainer.... duh... nth to do... we juz slack around.... at the bio section.... basically... nth dere la... lorx... tok to her... and she tell us a lot of things abt bpians during her batch...

den become explainer for the puzzle piece thing... i love it... explain to the others how to play... and show them how to do it...lalala...=)... den we swop and do the bird in the cage... it was boring... but saw a lot of little kids hu r VERY CUTE!...still going tml to sci centre doing cip hrx.....

hooray! i found HARRT POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE at the library.... =)... horray!... luckily... i tolf ai hua they all i want to go library... or i would nt haf found it!....=)

*weeep

2005-07-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

hmm... haiz... the purpose of my last post is to nt let euu all say sorry to miee... i want euu all to noe how i feel only.... i want euu all to improve on how euu all treat others in the future ba.... and to this steps.... it is inreversible... we cannot change wad tt haf happen... i only hope euu alll dun repeat ur mistakes.... i believe euu all would nt want to be in my shoes.... it haf been terrible...

JO:
i wanna to let euu noe tt... i did all this... which i believe euu noe wad i did... is to let euu noe how i feel when i am being left out... i feel so depressed this few days.... and sadd.... i can't possible think tt we USED to be gd friends... USED TO... but today is a different situation... i start to realise hu my true friends are... and hu i can trust... i gave up hopes.... on euu...

haiz...

2005-07-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

today... go dance... we r given only minimum space.... lehz.... haiz... but gt tights and ballet shoes.... this tues... which is last dance pratice.... haha... forget to bring money.... went home to take... after sch... luckily... yu han remind miee...hmmm... mdm liao... change dance steps AGAIN...those tt she changed during tues.... haiz.... wad the... change and change i am getting more a nd more confused... and today... i do lots of splits... obviously lah.... but nt really pain lorx.... hope tt my leg beta dun pain tml...

just now doing the q for the history project... i help hui jin lah... see i sho gd... haha...=)... i t6hink i left oput some chap 3 and she do for miee... and i help her do some of chapter 4.... haiz....

today during ipw... mr ong said sth tt i think i should do.... haiz.... when u and ur team members face problems.... euu all should communicate wif each other... and i am gonna do tt to my hsitory project team mates....

for euu all:
i am sorry... i did nt join euu all for the ipw project.... but the reason behind it is tt... euu all haf been making feel lyk an extra.... or rather.... crystal, hu jin and jo... euu all used to be the ones i hang out wif... but after the seating arrangements changed.... i starting to see the real picture.... haiz... perhaps euu all haf nt realised... i feel neglected.... and euu all lyk to hang out wif those 101 and toking abt sec 3 guys... and suddenly i feel tt i dun fit into the grp anymore.... i admitted i been upset over the history project... of slacking... but tt is only part of the reason.... cos i believe... since i changed seat... i really wanted to start afresh.... wif a new environment... especially jo... cos i think right frm the start... all my project is done wif euu.... i dun blame euu all... i only haf myself to blamed.... perhaps... i am hot-tempered? too sensitive? pr rather too serious... ? i dunno... but really.... i had enuf... i am gonna change once and for all.... i fell tt i fit beta wif ai hua they all... even puo hua... we used to hate each other... but we been beta these a days...i dunno wad to say... all i can say is tt i have muster up a lot of courage juz to say this... no... type this out... i could nt say this out... nv... nt cos of pride.... cos tt... i dunno y....

hooray... we getting cls-tee.... but dunno when rehearse for the finals of the cheerleading competition.... i think we haf REALLY LITTLE CHANCE of winning the lower sec category... haiz... but i really hope our cls will be more cooperative this time... and even if we did nt win... we had tried our best... and as we go along.... MAY OUR BONDING GREW.....

signing off... kaijun...

lalala...

2005-07-13T18:54:00.000+08:00

lalala.... today... gd sia... keatwin ask us if we want to do drills or tie bpians knots.... majority of us agree tt we should tie the bpian knots.... we tot it would haf been beta... but it's horrible.... tie till our hands VERY VERY PAIN! but i dunno la.... juz slack around... gd la... tml muz remember to get back guides handbk frrom ms phua... er... and er... give the 5 bpian knots to ??? her namwe? forgot.... frm 4M1... die... i dun dare to go in.... nvm... get claris and yin shuen to go wif miee... muz gif her before 2pm....should be in time la=)

Crystal:
well.... haiz.... sort of miss euu today at sch.... and jane lee joke abt sth euu noe... she sadi tt when euu r nt here today.... benjamin haf too much freedom and is being naughty.... haha...=) it's funny.... hmmm..... i wanted to let euu noe tt, tt day we go ben's hse we can't do project lorx... no offence ok... really... but euu two r lyk crazy about shopping or sth lorx.... hmmm... and we r waiting for euu two.... la... but honestly... i was oso partly at fault la... i apologised larx.... but perhaps.... being irritated and stress is the reason i become sho serious and hot-tempered lately.... i apologised for spiting euu and jo... i become serious wad hopefully to finish everything as soon as possible... it comes to remind miee tt i should bring the board game thing to sch... tml... i been too ambitious... thinking we could finish it very fast... sorry...

haiz...

2005-07-11T18:13:00.000+08:00

haiz... haf i been wrong believing n my beliefs.... i think tt doing a project can be done perfectly in 6 hr..... in one day.... if EVERYBODY COOPERATE... this post is written for one gurl in our cls... perhaps.... i come frm different sch as u all.... so my style of different of doing project is different frm euu.... i stongly believed tt in 6 hr is more than enuf... alright... if euu say we can't finish in a day.... but at least finish three-quarter of everything... if everybody cooperate and NOT SLACK around..... yes.... euu r right tt we r ahead of wad we haf planned.... we only said we r gonna plan..... but euu took 6 hr to plan? i think tt is practically too much.... since we haf excessive time... y dun we use tt time to do more..... and i really haf to say tt.... it is true i dun haf much time left for projects for the rest of the weeks before common tests... i may nt be free.... but i try to make it for the time..... but i really i wanna say.... sorry to euuu./... yes.... i put tt on my nick " it isn't so hard to think q" is to spite euu.... but i did nt mean to... i was mad at tt times..... but i think euu perfectly noe wad euu haf been doing.... if euu haf concentrated on wad euu've been doing and nt doing others thing( euuu urself shld noe wad i am saying) euu could haf oso finished easily.... i really.... dun wanna our releationship to turn sour.... but afterall..... i haf to let euu noe.... euu think i am too action... rushing for time.... true.... cos i scared later i may nt be able to make it and nt finish in time... i trying to be responsible... i dun wanna us to get zero.... i believed euu too ... i hope everything really work out...

signing off... kaijun...

muscle ache liao hell

2005-07-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

this few days... feeeling beta le of course.... but horx... leg mucles pain lyk siao... mr tom chan made us do standing board jump and shuttle run.... tt day... when i juz come back to sch... den i am training my split for mdm liao.... she say she want us this few gurls miee, steph, gladys, and pearlyn to perform for her next tues... i muz perfect my split.... i can do split..... but now muscle extremly pain.... haf to... haiz.... and i watching tian long ba bu as i type now.... juz now play maple.... tt account i havent play for a while liao...though i promise myself to stay away from maple in case i get addicted.... but still i give in to temptations la... play for awhile.... haiz.... hmmm.... very less ppl tag my tagboard lorx.... but the reason is cos i nv tag others blog ma... or rather i seldom... since i now very less online.... and i haf to remember my dance steps... wish me luck.... gtg.... and watch tian long ba bu liao... bb

sick...

2005-07-06T13:20:00.000+08:00

ARRGGGHHHH! i am sick... at home now... when other is in sch... haiz... yesterday should haf listen to my mum... nt go dance... but really... yesterday my fever went down.... tt's y i go dance.... how i noe it goes up again in the evening.... haiz.... when i reach home.... my fever go up to 39 + can't believe it myself... it's been a horrible night yesterday... i went to bathe.... when i reach home after taking my temperature.... at abt 7.... i went to sleep... den my mum woke me up and ask miee to take dinner... so i did so... and after dinner... i take panadol.... and went to slp at 8.30... sort of... till the next morning.... 6.30.... it is 10 hrs straight..... my mum ask miee if i wanna go to sch... but i still gt a bit fever.... so slp to 7... den woke up... do polyclinic see doctor... luckily.... waited for awhile only.... den dunno gif me wad medicine la... but feeling horrible.... i eat the medicine... and slp.... until 1pm.... juz woke up and ate my lunch.... haiz...

i beta get started on my hw le... any of my clsmates hu see this posts pls call miee... cos i dun think i am gonna online at nite... gonna slp early... lyk 9.... probably... but after tt... oso call la... nt sure... if i can slp... tell miee gt wad hw.... and history project euu all do wad le... eng ERIL assignment.... pls memorize ur lines... cos i checked wif a friend of mine in 107... ms lim lyn chua only gave 1 grp pass for her sec2 cls... so her expectations are very high... pls... memorize the script... euu alll gt chi tests and sci tests.... and did ms trina tay say wad will be tested for tml? and the seating arrangement... i noe i sit wif chien siew... yea! wad's going on today in sch? sis u all miss mie... haha... but at least i now feeling beta... i go back sch tml le... kkz... oh ya... muz remember to bring foto money... $15... and err... decorate table... ok... remember le... see whether can go back online... i needa do hw le....

hiee....

2005-07-04T18:18:00.000+08:00

i am back... but really upset today... coz of the same reason probably all my clsmate can named... i quarelled wif my sis AGAIN! it is AGAIN... and today i cried... haiz.. so upset tt i cried.... she's too much...

haiz... tml is the big day... revenge day... hope to get back... hope tt i could... but i noe the chances... i really really do hope... we r gonna make him regret... an eye for an eye.... we did wad he did to us... gonna make him suffer... but i noe the consequences... this may means... tt... haiz... rather nt tok abt tt...

gt lots of tests this week... and i changed songs le... hmm... i already forget how to put songs le... haiz... euu muz wondering this song how it come frm... i copied frm wenjie's blog... muhaha...=)... it's nice la... i tried to get the html on my own... but it wun loop... dunno y... so i copy... haha.... kkz... i gtg le... bb....

*this blog is so ... cannot put chi words...! can be seen here when i typing but nt when it is published!

haiz...

2005-07-01T18:50:00.000+08:00

i very busy nowadays... so nv blog... sorry.. been in bad mood recently... haiz... tues.. went to watch mu gui yin... at victoria theatre... wif zhi yean and wan siew.... it was really a rather interesting show... unforgettable... but a bit suai larz... nv expect to see wen jie dere! and wif his clsmates... tink so... and stupid him... keep asking miee to stand during the interval... juz cos his friend wanna noe hu i am... stupid sia...

wed... haf guides... haiz... still gt Pt lehz... in the morning.. ran 1 round outside... around 1.7km... and during guides.. extra round... cos of punishment... cos tt time... enrollment ceremony... nv bring PT lorx... need to run... altogether 8 rounds lehz... haiz... and si ling... a gurl frm sec 2 say i very flexible... cos i can touch the floor.. when doing warm up.. i didn;t say anything cos she dunno i frm dance ma... and bei xi say xue zhi very er(3) xin(1) coz during the cheerleading he do split ma...

thurs... dance... this is the most upsetting... haiz... we r supposed to be having ballet in the i-studio.... but they r having oral exam dere... so use 201 clsroom to dance ballet... duh... very dirty the floor.... quite ok la... and after tt go to the hall... for modern dance techiniques.... haiz... but... but... gt chase out cos of mr vincent lee... i dun wanna say anymore of this... any sarcastic comment or wadsoeva... cos later a volleyball player see and tell him... hmmm... i dun even talk to hong xun now.... and dere is sth big going on next tues... tt all i can reveal...

today... haiz... youth day celebration.... bpain idol.... shahil won... cos lots of councillors vote for him... i heard.... and later hui jin come my hse... but quarelled later...cos she hang the fone up when... haiz... i dun wanna say la... been really upset wif her... but i knew i was at fault too... cos of my bad mood... so i apologised lorx... and mr neo refused to change seat today... when other classes haf already changed.... this add on to my unhappiness....

dunno... y... i am really very tired... tired of all the cca things... and quarelll i hope to make a clean break frm all this thing... haiz....

hmmm...

2005-06-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

aihua, joyce, jane lee, yin kee, chien siew and puo hua juz left.... we doing the sci project... haiz... i think so so lorx... their attitude... haiz... caught them playing games a few times... and err... miee joyce and ai hua working out formations... thought of two... haiz... needa 3... haiz... i am nt gonna care la.. and hmm... i wanna change blogskin! but no time lehz... =S

i am signing off... kaijun

to be continued...

2005-06-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

ok... back... continue lorx..

hmmm.... den the boys we did nt play water start to play sand lorx... dug sand up lyk a dog... haha... and hmm.. nth le lorx...den play water... paly and play... den go 7-11 to buy lunch lorx... hmmm... and fillis saw zhi ying and tok to her again... nvm... and er... den we went to bathe and rent 1 big locker to put fillis, joanne and my bag inside... den we go siloso beach to rent bike... den,... the rest cycle very fast... i cycle... slow to accompany claris... lorx... she tak her own sweet time... slowly lorx... i oso very long nv cycle liao... so a bit slow le larx.. no use in the middle ma... hmmm... den we all very tired... liao... take train back to lot 1... this time.. and we sat on the floor.. and everybody look at us... muhaha... and hmmm... and we dunno abt the rest... lyk lai cheng they all... cos we go seperate way... ma... haiz... dere is some quarell though.... and eat dinner at food junction... den walk home! haha... =)

today dance practise... haiz... they having the mu gui yin thing rehearsal in front.... the mcee is shiang qing pei and malvin worx.... both of them pro sia... watch them say as doing stretching... later the syf move to courtyard... and the hip hop and stretching one go i-studio... cos in the hall cannnot make any noise... very difficult... lorx... wah! do a lot of inner thigh stretching... do until lyk siao... but i oso quite happy lorx... dunno y... gt a sense of self-belonging... and later we dismiss le... but haf to go courtyard cos need to say gdbye to teacher ma... so muz go courtyard... haiz... waited for abt 15 min... den say gdbye den leave..already 6.30le lehz...

ok... i gining off...
kaijun

sentosa trip...

2005-06-23T14:08:00.000+08:00

hiee... everybody... i noe everybody miss miee... muhaha.... i noe i very thick-face la... haha.... and hmmm... though still a bit sick... but beta... yesterday... i went for the sentosa trip... did nt regret.... it was FUN!!

first... took bus dere and saw zhi ying....meet a mac toe at breakfast for a few of us.... and eng treat... miee... fillis... and joanne.... i think it's mainly cos of joanne.... den.... eng brought along his bro and cousin... and den... chu yong and jun guan arrive.... den... guess hu we saw... shu yi... nv expect to see her dere.... and guess wad.... she's going sentosa too.. wad a coincidence rite.... den she go ka jiao joanne... go to the boy's table and ask... hu lyk joanne... haha... how cheeky of her... bit basically.... she's quite a nicee gurl to be wif... next we went to the cck... control station to wait... hmmm.. nth beta to do lehz... wait and wait... until everyone was here.... ad took 188 to harbourfront.... wee.... chat and take pics.... and listen to claris's mp3 on the bus... hmmm.... abt 1 hr.... den we took the sentosa bus in.... guess.... wad.... saw shu yi again.... haiz... she's a bit zi(4) lian(4) kuang(2).... lorx..... haha... den went to palawan beach.... hmmm... change into clothes to play water mah..... and so we went down... the rest of the gurls gone missing very fast... we did nt mind much lorx... hmm... i gtg le.... going for dance pratise... continue this either at night or tml...

hmmm....

2005-06-21T15:37:00.000+08:00

haiz.... today a bit sick... sho nv go dance... really... i dunno wad happen to miee... i nv been sick in the holidays and twice this time... haiz... and tml still going sentosa... though sick... i wun miss it for gd... nv... i will nt miss it... haiz... gtg le... sth wrong wif my internet.... duh.... msn sign in and out... aiyo.... i gtg le... haiz... signing off... bb

hmmm...sianz...

2005-06-20T14:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... doing the heymaths thing... assignment... omg...it's tough man... and i think i left my sec 1 maths textbk in the locker... haiz.... going to ask my sis liao.l..tough luck... and the sentosa trip change to 8.30am... so early ar.... haiz... and yet eng is crazy wanna ask us go eat breakfast.... euu want wad time wake up 7? 6? siao.... hmmm.... now wad.... nth to do lehz... sianz... dunno going to the campfire this fri a nt.... hmmm.... the dunearn campfire wad nt really an enjoyable one.... since dere is onli a few sec 1.... and fer this... i think onli claris going.... poor thing.... lehz.... hmmm..... but i oso dun wanna join her... haiz.... the onli sec 1.... wad for.... go for wad.... and i damn lazy lehz... and i think sat.... the others coming my hse to combine the dunno wad powerpoint slide or sth la.... hmmm... i den cannot stay out tt long... hmm... hesitating.... haiz...

and the finals of the cheerleading competition.... is haiz.... haf to get a lot of things to organise.... haiz.... sianz... hmmm.... sch starting in a week... y can't it start later.... and horx.... i haf to remember to get my sec1 maths textbk out.... Arg!

home sweet home...

2005-06-18T18:32:00.000+08:00

today... hmm... mty cousin went home... hip hip hurray!! she been bugging miee non-stop... and affected miee... can't blog...can't go msn and everything.... muz entertain her... worse.... parents went to work... sis go back to sch... i alone wif her at home.... hmm...

hmmm....i regretted going to the previous dance practise.... xiu si say... many ppl are late.. so she discuss wif lao shi and say if antone of us r late we r supposed to run in the field 10 times!! omg!! haiz... and the previous dance practise show tt dere is still ppl hu dare to be late.... haiz... but fortunately... teacher let us run 5 rounds and those latecomers i think 7 or 8.... haiz..... den lehz.... tt anna tok back to teacher or sth... ms tan wanna us do 100 times pumping... still own her 40 times.... haiz... and horx... ms tan and mr vincent lee had staring fight... haha... thinking abt it... can't help but laugh.... the volleyball players keep throwing the ball to our area of the hall... so many times....and hit us hard okiee.... and ms tan made a boy apologised to all of us.... and mr vincent lee saw it... and asked wad happen.... and ms tan stared at mr vincent lee... and so did mr vincent lee... in the end.... he walk away... muhahah.... staring fight.... but their expression really can "kill" ... hmmm... and in the end.... my muscle ache again... but today is beta la....hmmm... feel lyk changing blogskin again... but damn lazy...

i am looking forward to the trip to sentosa wif my clsmate.... i lurve u all.... yea.... and mrs vivien lim is going... sho do her son and husband.... i wonder how's her son liao... the last time saw him was last yr.... and he wad sho CUTE!! i think he can walk liao rite? abt 2 yrs old le.... =)

i am signing off... kaijun

haiz...

2005-06-16T13:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... 3 cousins coem to my hse... and 2 just went home yesterday... and there's one more cousins at my hse.....

roy-gd boy(*went home)
grace-gd gurl(*went home)
rui wen-badd

haiz... this gurl have been bugging mieee fer the 0pass few days and teasing the other two... haiz... i dunno wad to say la... she have beeen giving miee a lot of trouble... and nt listening to mie.... dun carry out intructions properly... haiz... lyk to fool around wif my sis... and hate to do hw.... haiz... can't make her do hw... except my mum...and she did it unwillingly...and haf to teach her sci... and well.... and my sis say cos she is the guest i haf to give in to her!! it's unfair!! and the other two... haf been perfect angel fer the past few days... haiz... except fer peeping at my sms...muhaha... veryy badd... horx... quit naughty la... but other than tt... been a perfect angel.... lurve themm... haha...

as for dance... stretching nt so cham liao le larx... perhaps getting used to it le... muscle nt tt pain le... dunno y... lehz... i feel teacher is picking on miee... hmmm... but i already tried my best le... and i did nt try to hide today... which i am being accused of... cos there is no space... i move back... and i gt scolded..... nt in perfect mood.... actually... quit fed up... wif tt mdm liao le.... but i haf to persist... hmmm..... i gonna consider everything... whether to quit a nt... at the end of the yr.... haiz.... believe tt gt soem other gurls oso... and she scold and scold... always lyk tt one... wonder how sec4 persist.... 4 yrs... stand her... =(... dun mean tio mark her down... but is juz tt... thinking of her make miee sick... haiz... always lyk tt one... today i even hear sec4 and some sec2 scolding her... haiz... as if she lurve to torture us....

beta sign off le.... trying to kajiao miee again... ARRGGGHHHHH....

aiyo...

2005-06-13T09:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm... my cousin coming my hse... no... should be... they ALREADY come my hse... no wanting me to play monopoly wif them... ARGGGGH! three of them... as i fi dun haf enuf trouble... wif miee for the whole week ... omg!! haiz... i dun think i haf much time to post after all haf to ENTERTAIN them...

and sorry guys... can't go for the gathering... sorry...

and errmmm.... i dun think i can go for the gathering this bowling session sorry... zoey.....

wen jie ... ermmm... sorry for misunderstanding euu... i tot euu write one... and i nt exactly in my best mood... and hueva the stupid person hu use wen jie name... hmm... dun use it anymore... i am madd....

signing off... kaijun

hmmm...

2005-06-11T13:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday's campfire... was a failure... especially the song leaders... no one join in singing wif them... and they sing out of tune... those songs even brownies now how to sing man... haiz... failure... but lurve the dancing part... and the 1000-legged worm thing... run around the fire... wee.... hmmm...

actualy... yesteradat went dere at 2pm gt nth to do.... pluck bananas and ties ribbon around it... sianz... later carry benches to the carpark areas... den i went home to take my full-u... forgot to bring -.- lorx... yin shuen oso... but horx... yesteraday... muscles pain until lyk hell... walk and walk home and back... and loiter around till 6.30pm? i think sho.. and dere's no dinner!!! hmm... went home to take dinner.. finish two packet of instant noodles... i am dan hungry... hmmm... today nt sho pain liao...beta le...

hmmm... dunno wad awaits miee tml... tml... i THINK... THINK onli... i nt very sure... dunno true a nt.... my xiao(3) jiu(4) getting a divorce tml... haiz... omg! signing the paper... it think or sth... my parents refused to tell mie... wad is happening... so does my sis... and i think soo... hear a bit here and dere... and i think so... but I HOPE this DOES NT happen... my poor cousins.... haf to dunno take them where tml... so they wun be upset.. i doubt they even noe... hmmm... gtg le... bb...

signing off...kAiJuN

arrrggghhhh....

2005-06-10T10:55:00.000+08:00

ARGGGGHHHHH.... dance practice is getting frm badd to worse... hmmm.... muscle ache all over my body and den kana scolded by mdm liao... *sniff.... hmmm... she say we nv try... we haf... and we did our best le... we did to our maximum and she want more.... can't she be more reasonable... feeling rather miserable.... boo hoo hoo... hmmm.... i feel lyk quitting... i am really very tired le... how much more will it take before i quit.... i dun think i can persist anymore... i am REALLY VERY VERY TIRED... and the aching is killing miee.... enuf is enuf le... but can i really quit... hmmm... i haf to think... and dunno wad stupid audition.... and is one to one.... duh... and horx... accused us!!! ARRGGGHHH!!! hmmm... can't she see we did our best le... and the aching is affecting our performance....duh! and threaten to kick us out! go ahead la! i haf enuf le... and yet dun get appreciated.... wad more... no offence... to ppl hu lyk her... she is biased!!! hmm... i think i will go for holiday training.... den consider abt qutting or persisting on in dance.... haiz... and wad more the seniors participating... i noe... joanne, jessica, wanying.... and dunno wad the other gurl name... ARGGGGGGHHH!!they oso participating in the graduation dance... hmm... and plus... josephine, roshell, paul, pearlyn and the other sec 2 gurl...hmmm... left 11 places... hmmm... dere is 12 ppl... left... but... i heard the seniors... oso wanna learn and participate in the graduation dance... can't they kuan(1) rong(3) us... after all it's our first performance in BPGHS.... and hmm... forget it le... i am seriously very upset... being accused again and again nt trying our best when i did!!! hmmm.....

after all i gt another cca.... -girl guides.... duh... and having campfire later.... but i very tired... muscle aching... and now i am the onli one in the cls join modern dance... can anybody feel my pain.... hmmm.... it's so hard to do so... and tt teacher is BIASED!!! =(... haf enuf le...

but i am am meeting step, gladys and jiali after all i dun wanna embarrassed myself in front of all the seniors again... kana scolding by teacher... especially lai yeng... hmmm... look at miee lyk wad lorx... hmm... feel very pressurized... and she HAF TO NOE... miee and my friends haf stage fright... she noe wad is stage fright???? stage fright is when standing on the stage wif ppl staring at euu... euu will feel scared... and at a lost... forget everything euu r supposed to do... hmmm... we haf stage fright... it's nt sth to be proud of... but it's tt we can't change it if we haf stage fright.... and she's nt helping us... but doing the opposite.... discouraging us!! hmm... strarting to hate this cca i used to love... hmm... and even now typing this.. i can feel the pain in my fingers and arm... hmmm... can't move my leg much... cos it oso pain... and the teachers think tt we should sacirifice.... our time and physical pain... juz cos of one stupid cca!! physical pain... is realllt PAIN... okiee... pain in terms tt euu can feel tt pain EVERYDAY!! dunno wad stupid audition...

but all along haven't i been my dream to dance in the grand openings and all sort .... graduation dance is one of them... and i am giving it all up juz lyk this? i dunno... if i pratised harder... would i haf the chance.... in her heart... she already chosen hu she wanna them to be in the dance... no matter how hard i try... she wun get it... will my hrad work go down the drain? i dunno... i juz feel lyk lying down and forget tt i haf eva join tt cca... cos it's nt suitable fer miee... i juz take it as i juz haf a nightmare.... and it's finally over le... and ta-da... everything... is gone... hmmm.... and she wanted to embarrassed us saying tt the seniors and some other sec2 onli learn the dance yesteraday and getting hold of it... and we learnt it fer how many months le... and compare... if she wanna compare... let her compare all she want... let her haf no sec 1... see wad she will do... the one at lost is nt... us...

how can she do this! destroy our courage... we took a LOT of courage juz to stand dere.... and dance... cos to her may be nth... but to us is a difficult task... and hmm... i wanna show her i can do it! do i? i can dance very welll in front of her AND THE AUDIENCE.. hmm... well... i will post later or maybe tml.. tot ell euu if the campfire wad fun...

signing off... kaijun

hmmm....

2005-06-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

feeling terrible today... my whole body ache... omg! hmm... hope i recover by tml.... cos tml haf ... another dance.. pracitce... haiz..

hmmm... and ermm... deciding wad to do during our cls gathering... hmm... actually is celebrate vivien adn benjamin's b'dae... our cls chairman and HOM... hmmm... the day is definitely fun... hmm... going ice-skating... hmmm... i dunno how to ice-skate... and dunno can go a nt lehz.. haf to ask... hmmm... hope tt i can go... haven't been dere before... no... been dere before... but nv try to ice-skate before... i can't even roller skate... duh... haha... =)

hmmm... this photobucket thing is so slow... hmm... updating foto... on my profile area.... take a look okiee...
signing off

kAiJuN

dance practise is a torture

2005-06-07T17:12:00.000+08:00

today... hmmm... today gt dance practise... and it's HORRIBLE!!! tt ms tan... hmmm.. well.. she did mean well... but... is damn pain okiee... and after doing split... she wanna us to do "crawl"... was ttt? speell this way? or wadeva... well... of all person.. i haf to do the same way as the seniors... ans pearlyn they all no nid... no fair!! hmmm... and i cannot... do so lehz... and moving my leg... is sho pain now... sure haff muscle ache tml... wad the... hmm... i think she's still coming on thurs... omg! spare miee... haiz... dun mad emiee do differently... frm the others... SAME AGE as miee... the... trying to master the whole graduation dance... and it's damn long lehz.... huh? wuie long lehz... and it's very complicated... made me very luan(4).... haiz... luckily... i can recall.. the previous dance steps... or at least i think sho... remember most of it... but nt too sure... hmm.. the new one... is getting more and more complicated... haiz... gtg... le...
i am signing off le...

KaiJuN

connie is right...

2005-06-06T13:51:00.000+08:00

connie u r right... ppl in our pasts hu used to be our everything... juz come and go and changed... but we haf to adapt.... dun worry... if euu needa a listening ear or wadsoeva... dun hesitate to look fer miee okiee... gurl... lurve euu...

hmmm... i dunno wad to write lehz... this day r sho sianz... needa do hw... hmmm... can't do much blogging lorx... always snatching wif my sis the computer... hmmm... and hmmm... wad should i write... really... i feel tt ppl nowadays... forget wad they r supposed to be... and changed in a blink of an eyes... but we think of them... wad they used to be.... but... wad left now is juz memories... memories... of all the gd times we had together... hmmm... gtg le larx... connie pls read this posts okie... bb

i am signing off le...

kAiJuN

thanks...

2005-06-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

thanks filis... for the posts things..... euu r a great help to miee... haha... hmmm... a gd frienz.... for the 6th yr in a row.... thanks fer everything... euu haf helpp miee... and as for the thing abt sentosa.... thing... yea... i may reconsider going since euu r waiting fer miee... and go together... thank euu! thanks fer everything euu haf helppp miee in life sho far... thank euu....

hmmm...

2005-06-05T17:20:00.000+08:00

sorrie ar... yst i cannot posts later cos my sis wanna use comp... how i wish i haf a laptop of my own... and juz now tok to hui jin on the fone...

hmmm.... perhaps she did learnt her lesson... she told miee... tt sherman did tell her tt he lyk her... but she rejected him.... haiz... once bitten twice shy... haha... nt mean to be sho cruel but it's juz tt she should noe dere is no happy ending.... hmmm...

hmmm and as for the trip to sentosa... i think i can't go anymore.... eng said tt they can't change it to 11am cos tt if they leave here at 11am they will reach dere at 12+... and some of them r leaving at 5+.... haiz... i think i dun wanna trouble them sho much la... cos they say after Modern dance practise tt day... i juz go to harbourfront... and they sent someone to meet miee dere... but i dun think it's a gd idea after all... and after Modern dance practice would mean tt i would be very tired... but after alll haiz... hmm... sadd thing tt i can't go unless i skip my cca... and heard frm eng tt naifu is skipping his cca to go.... hmmm.... but skipping a practise would mean tt i may nt be able to participate in the graduation day dance.... cos teacher gt say le... if u dun attend the practise... she wun put euu in the dance... haiz... and i longed to be in tt dance.... haiz.... hmmm... i juz can forget abt tt.... haiz....

and hmmm.... i left a few hw onli ba... but i really nt free... and i lazy to put up my schedule la... but it's juz tt i gt 8 practises... each is two and a half hr.... but normally... they will extend cca for abt half an hr more... to abt three hr... sometime even worst... three and a half hr... hmmm... haiz... and i haf campfireon the coming friday... our sch is the hosting sch... we gt nth to do dere except to participate in the campfire... haha... adn i lost my consent form.... and another campfire at bukit batok sec.... i think again lyk the previous campfire.... onli a few sec 1.... hmmm.... heard tt vanessa is going.... yea! hope tt cynthia is going... and maybe rachel will tag along too... let's hope so okiee....

hmmm... realli hot this few days.... the heat is coming up... and my cousin is coming but will be on different days.... either tml or next mon... hmmm.... dunno if i gt time to blog... when she come.... she is a bit love to pester us... to play wif her... let's hope she will be a gd gurl lorx... lol.... haiz.... and hmmm.... i think i wanna visit our cls webbie and maybe put a notice... cos nt many ppl visit dere... and maybe encouraged them to posts... hmmm ... they should... cos it's a cls webbie... so 03ians should come and blog okiee....

my new blog...

2005-06-04T13:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... nicee ba... hmmm... i put in a lot of effort for this blog... and my back start to ache now.... omg! haiz.... and i will be updating my holiday schedule up here... gif miee comments on my blog to tell miee it's nice a not okiee.... thank euu....i think i haf to go le... been facing this computer for a long time.... hmmm... i see i can write another post later....XD